I have to remind myself of this every time I have a bad day. When I say bad day, I mean a really shitty one when nothing goes as planned. A day when you wake up too late with a terrible headache, find no painkillers at your house, try to send important emails but there is something wrong with your internet connection and then when you finally decide to go out and find some Wi-Fi enabled workplace to finish your work that was supposed to be done yesterday, but you only have 24 hours in a day and you find out that your car won’t start. This is the exact moment when you ask yourself: Why me? Why today when I’ve got so much work to do? What the hell is happening? You start to think that the entire universe is conspiring against you. It’s got to be this! Then anxiety level is rising to the extreme, your heart beats like crazy and you start noticing some really strange/bizarre things going through your mind. Is this a karma? You ask yourself. Did I do something really bad in the past and now I have to pay for that? Did someone put an evil curse on me? It must be it. It’s the only logical answer to all this mess. I am definitely right. I cannot be wrong, can I?
And then you discover that it’s not over yet. Life has prepared more surprises for you. You have just realized that you dropped your car keys into a storm drain… Sweet lord of mercy… What’s coming next?! Oh, well… You find yourself stuck in the middle of the great chaos and you just don’t know what to do. You didn’t expect that. You really didn’t see it coming. Life is playing dirty now. You start to believe that the universe is out there to get you. In the meantime, you noticed that your headache got even worse, probably because of this tremendous amount of stress that your body and mind just can’t take anymore. And then another ridiculous thought comes to you: Somebody is sticking pins in the voodoo doll he/she has made in my likeness. It must be it. It’s the only logical answer. The only explanation for this tremendous pain.
You tell yourself: Am I going crazy? What the hell is happening today? Does my life want me to give up? Should I just sit in the middle of the parking lot and start crying? Is this what I suppose to do now? Should I just give up? All of these questions beat in your head. You feel that you lost control not only of this particular situation but of your whole life. This is how it feels when anxiety kicks in hard and you are alone.
Things are getting hectic and you start wondering if you are hallucinating or this is, in fact, your reality. I don’t want to upset you but there is something you should know about…
Yes, it’s true, you woke up. Yes, this is not a dream. And yes, you’ve got a really shitty day. Deal with it. Best wishes from life…. Oh gosh… I knew it. I have to fight for my dignity as a human being. This is it. I have to prove my point. Wait, what?! I’m not sure what I am talking about. I must have dissociated from the reality for a moment. I have to think straight again, calm down and analyze the situation again.
Accept What You Cannot Control.
Let’s face the reality. There is nothing I can do to fix this day. It’s not like I have some superpower. I am only human. All I want to do is scream, to yell my head off. And the only thing could stop me from doing this it’s a small possibility that my neighbors will think that I am some kind of lunatic. Oh, wait. Honestly, I couldn’t care less. It wouldn’t be the first time I scream the four-letter word that I love so much. So I did it. I shout at the top of my voice. It felt so liberating, so empowering until I noticed my neighbor who was carefully observing the whole “parking lot” situation. He came up to me and offered to help me. He pulled out my car keys from the storm drain by using a little trick. You know how they say:
Necessity is the mother of invention.
That’s so true! We exchanged a couple of words, he gave me a good pat on the back and told me to remember that I am just having a bad day. So I came back home, did a guided meditation for stress and anxiety relief, had a cup of coffee and I allow myself to go on with my day which by the way as it turned out wasn’t that bad. What I want to tell you about today.
If you have a really tough day remember that you are just having a bad day NOT a bad life!! Tomorrow is another day, don’t forget about it!
Take care!!
Stay positive
Be mindful
xx Kate
